May 8th, 2006

Current Music: the impossibles, stars light Current Location: the fucking library Subject: duuuuuuuuuuuude Time: 08:30 pm Current Mood: crazy

so finals week has finally arrived and i want to kill myself/jump for joy. i don't think i've procrastinated quite as badly as i usually do, but my classes were exceptionally difficlut this semester so i'm still stressed out. i can't wait to come back home for summer. i really want to make sure i spend some quality time with people i've lost touch with and make my friendships even stronger. i wonder about people who have lost contact with their friends back home and have made san diego their entire lives. are they going to stay here when they graduate? it's not that i don't love my freinds down here because i do, but i've always known that i was going back to l.a. so i guess i've never really became close to them because i know we probably won't speak a lot when i graduate next year. weird. oh my god and i'm finally going to have a car this summer, for real. my mom and dad are getting me one for my 21st birthday which is weird to think about too. i know i'm getting older, but i've never felt younger than i do now. there was this brief period where i thought i was getting things figured out and squared off, yeah that went away and i'm back to being confused about my future and everything in general. it was nice for a little while, i just gave into my depression and sulked. i think i'm over it though. so basically i can't wait to go biking with gabby, hang out at jeremy's mom's house like i used to, go camping, spend endless amounts of time at jesse's, go to new york, have z blow me off (yeah i said it) and intern wherever that might be. and of course hang out with all the og's i didn't mention, but have equal love for. i have so much l.a. pride it's sick

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February 17th, 2006

Current Music: gregory and the hawk Subject: well tell me, what can i do? Time: 08:53 am Current Mood: aggravated

godammit the ice sculpture is melting again you'd think with this cloud cover she'd just stay frozen oh she never does, she is just begging to ruin our lives was she drinking again? you know how the alcohol affects her temperature she was doing a lot more than that she was missing some people that don't exist anymore so these are tears? yes, i think so she needs some evaluation she needs to get well she needs to figure this out before she melts completely

February 11th, 2005

Current Music: tegan and sarah Subject: holy shit Time: 02:28 am

i am officially dying. i hate it when that happens. it seems like everyone else is so happy and i just want you to know that i hate you. this time of year makes me wish st. valentine was a lonely old man who hated love, but of course he wasn't. fuck that. oh and i'm starting to think that i'm going to be sent to hell and that i can't be happy without god. do you think that's true? god i hope not. i mean i'm not happy now so maybe i should give it another try. i'm not so sure, in fact i'm really skeptical. i've been fine nearly my whole life without Him. i don't even feel anything anymore, spiritually i mean. things you ponder at 2:30 a.m.

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January 2nd, 2005

Current Music: beyonce-bootylicious Subject: fuck italy, i spit on my name Time: 10:53 am Current Mood: blah

ssssssssssssssssooooooo. let's see what's been going on. about two weeks ago i went to ireland and it fucking rocked. it was cold, but beautiful and i visited a place called powers court which i'm pretty sure is heaven on earth. we went to a pub and met these crazy australlians and they were dancing really funny. thennnn the next day we wanted to go on a pub crawl, but couldn't find one so we were milling about and then ron jeremy walked by with these two guys. weird. we proceeded to go back to our hostel which we shared with smelly russian men. ok they were kind of nice. so italy, right? that place sucks. it was dirrrty and smelly and humid and the people were rude. it rained the whole time we were in venice, but jade and i went on a gondola ride because we're in love and that was fun. in florence we stayed in a FUCKING TENT. we thought it was going to be a room like all the other hostels, but we forgot to read the fine print that said "oh yeah, we only have fucking dirty insect infested tents to sleep in." my bad. so we did everything we had to in florence in a day. saw the statue of david, climbed like 200 hundred steps to the of this dome blah blah blah. on to tuscany where we met up with some of our frinds. the place was decent and we had a pretty good time. went to the leaning tower of pisa and took dorky pictures. i have one with my butt holding it up hahahaha. then rome was pretty sweet. we just did a lot of sight seeing and pretended we were gladiators at the colosseum. people stared and we thought we were hilarious. back to england for halloween yayayayayyayayayay! dressed up as a motley crue groupie because some of my friends dressed up as motely crue and i had nothing else to wear. oh well, it was fun. well i love everyone and miss you very much <3! take care of yourselves!

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October 11th, 2004

Subject: porn and snuff films Time: 08:00 am

so i realized i haven't updated this mother in a while so here i go. i don't really want to talk about amsterdam. we stayed in the red light district and i saw some things i really did not want to see. like old ladies in their underwear trying to sell themselves by tapping the window at people passing by and uh i'm traumatized. two of my friends tried to see a sex show, but i guess it was just some chick damcing naked and kind of touching herself. sick. i'm pretty sure if the devil exists he lives in amsterdam. if you still want to know everything when i come home you can ask me about it. i got back from liverpool yesterday and it was sweet! we went on the magical mystery tour and our tour guide seemed like a crazy obsessed beatles fan. there were a ton of old people trying to recapture their youth or something and they were all wearing tank tops in below zero weather so i kind of think liverpool is a backwards town, but there were cooler young kids there compared to london. i thought i had more to write, but lucky for you i don't. i'm going to ireland this weekend and we're going to the guiness factory- i am so excited. what is everyone going to be for halloween? i'll be in italy and i don'tknow if they really celebrate, but i'm going to be sickeningly american and dress up.

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September 28th, 2004

Current Music: daughters Subject: the shit that makes life good Time: 03:19 pm Current Mood: annoyed

so um. last thursday jade and i went to see daughters at this venue in england. it took forever for us to get there because we got lost and suck at following directions. we get there and i was sure they had played but the band onstage was not daughters so i was relieved. we got some drinks at the bar and moved to the front to watch the show. jade is a bit tipsy and so am i so i don't really notice when she leaves my side, but when i do i start to panic. a couple minutes later she comes waltzing(?) out of a nearby door and i don't even think to ask her where she was. so daughters play and they are fucking amazing and whatever. then i decide i'm going to go talk to them after the show because you put a few drinks in me and i think i can do anything. so we start talking to the lead singer and he's pretty nice and he gives me some of his drink and i really like him now. hahahha. he asks us to hang out with them for a while, but we promised we'd pick someone up at midnight and it was getting close. so we had to leave. motherfucker. later jade told me she was in the room with the band talking to them earlier that night. i knew this trip would be good for something. oh yeah and amsterdam in two days.

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September 23rd, 2004

Current Music: cat stevens Subject: charles dickens Time: 11:37 am Current Mood: blah

sooooooooo do you ever feel like you have something to say and then find that it seems lame. yeah me too. but you will read this and you will like it or else! so everyone is really chic here and it's making me sick. i can't even go to the market in sweat pants without feeling like a homeless person. everything is waaaaaaaaaaaaaay over priced thanks to george w. bush for making our economy so shittyassbad. and the mullet is back in full force and it isn't pretty. even some business men have slight mullets. i'll try and upload some pictures soon because i never do and well i should. i'm going to amsterdam in a week because i already need a vacation. i'm a brat. i miss everyoone dearly and i'll try and post about interesting things next time. cheers!

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September 13th, 2004

Subject: strongbow Time: 09:33 pm

so it's officially winter time in merry old england. i don't mind it that much, but the sporatic rainfall is making my face blush and my hair frizzy so i look like a beast basically. went to the park to get some reading done with aliie, jade and lindsay. we drank 2 liter bottles of this beer called strongbow and i passed out in the apartment(not before sitting outside of this pizza place and having some funny british guy come up to me and kiss my head). today = worst hangover ever. never doing that again. took the tube down to england's compton aka brickston. not that scary, but the whole reason we went was so these clean cut looking girls from ventura could score some hash and plus i like to live dangerously. it was ridiculous to say the least. that's england so far.

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June 20th, 2004

Subject: HOLLER Time: 07:27 pm

i got a new phone number for my cell phone so save it or die! it's 818 445 2368

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May 25th, 2004

Time: 10:45 pm

happy happy happy happy birthday eerie i was so close to posting the pirate picture from disneyland, you don't even knowwwwwww righhht nowww everyone it is still erica's birthday today. if you have not done so already, give her your best wishes and www.e-hearts <3

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May 7th, 2004

Subject: shut up Time: 12:49 pm

you know what i hate? well, you're going to find out. i hate all these kids on this website who try to play themselves off as being deep and troubled by all these insurmountable woes. or the kids who are all "dark and scary", well they're probably vapid and shallow and ALL they care about is their goddamn hair and jeans. and i'm not saying that no one has problems or has suffered a hard life, but take a look at your life and how serious you are about your fucking scene. it's pathetic. oh and the kids who just go to shows to be seen there or to show off their new urban outfitters blazer... fuck you. get the fuck out so people who actually care about the music can get a ticket to the show. and kids who hate on other kids becuase of the music they listen to or if they're hair is the wrong shade of black...fuck you too. wow i never knew i was so angry about this.

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April 26th, 2004

Current Music: the strokes Subject: you talk way too much Time: 11:51 pm Current Mood: anxious

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want. Then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you.

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March 23rd, 2004

Time: 10:43 pm

i'm in love with boxes. two, in fact. one is my t.v. and the other is my computer. please help me. they're taking over my life. i don't even know what's real. but really, life is going well otherwise. i miss my friends and b-town already &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& my coachella tickets came in the mail today. yes, life is good again.

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January 11th, 2004

Current Music: bright eyes Subject: attach this severed head...i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm alive, i'm dead Time: 02:55 am Current Mood: awake

can i just say that i'm a douche and you don't need to comment that i am because i know it. holy shit. i just took a stroll down memory lane read my old journals. wow. they should have been filled with things like d00d, lol, HaWt and so on because that's how lame they are. i'm going to try and get cooler and not subject you guys to my shit. anyway, i'm going back san diego or what i like to call my own private hell. i'm going to miss you all dearly and i didn't get to see everyone enough. i'll be back soon enough. oh and my user pictures!??!! goddamn, i'm changing those soon. i don't even look the same. alright i know this is long, but i have'nt put up any new poetry so i just have to. and meryl... relationships are based on record collections!!! <3 i'm your open book read me through and through bend my spine and read me again if that would please you so... but you say my eyes are vague, cloudy and grey you cannot see my soul this is what i present to you... only a chosen few can see clear skies in my window-like eyes

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November 27th, 2003

Subject: ha Time: 12:34 am

going to san francisco tomorrow,,,gay. i wish i was eating tofurkey in l.a. with all of my friends. i love mer mer and jess and lala and jade and z and jess m and bri and and gabby and everyone else who occupies my heart. happy thanksgiving. i love you all.

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September 27th, 2003

Time: 11:08 am Current Mood: BAHAHAHA!

Hi this is Mer & I love Errie more than you do. && She's adopting me a kitty named Trouble & when we're 80 and our husbands die, we're moving to Hawaii and getting married and we'll open our vegan cheesecake shop & I love her & run on sentences & she'd better still be coming home tonight &&& if she Bangs it up tonight I'm going to Baaanng her face in & she's addicted to friendster so everyone be her friend before she dies. kayiloveyoubye. DRRRAAAAWWW MEE

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September 17th, 2003

Current Music: dashboard confessional-bitter pill Subject: oh fuck. shit. damn. really? damn it to hell. shut it up, you!! Time: 12:44 am Current Mood: determined

thank you homestar runner for making life fun again and muffinfilms.com!! today was good and bad. first this girl was a bitch to me and i just wanted to tell her that it's not her fault she can't be as cool or as smart as me and so on. i kid, i kid. no i told her to stop being rude and she gave me another dirty look. no. what really happened is i took it like a bitch. shit, i hate her. anyway, then my class got cancelled that i ditched so i didn't really ditch it. yay for playing hooky. so i went to pokez and ate the food of gods and it was glorious. but then i broke the handle on their toilet=not good. oh well. then i sat on friendster for like three hours (no joke) and searched the index. i came up with like 3 cool people. sad. my eyes and ass hurt now. and later i had a tummy ache. once again i didn't read like i was supposed to and i'm going to fail at life. overall it was a good day. hope everyone is well!!

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September 3rd, 2003

Current Music: bright eyes-every day and every night Subject: i believe that lovers should be draped in flowers... Time: 04:53 pm Current Mood: apathetic

well school is crap worth thousands of dollars. i'm having an okay time i guess. there are lots of hot boys so that's a plus, but it's still school. i have this ancient dinosaur for a sociology teacher and he is soooooooooo boring. he said hell a couple times so that was cool and then he got lame again. i have a lot of reading to do, blah. if i could just go out every night and have zero responsibility college would kick ass. too bad. not having fun has never cost so much money. anyway it sounds like i really hate it, but i guess it's not that bad. i'm going to go bowling at our gym. we actually have a full alley in our gym. sweet.

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September 1st, 2003

Current Music: ultimate lounge Subject: no more smiles from now on they are all gone Time: 11:49 pm Current Mood: anxious

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooooo!!!! school tomorrow??? shit shit shit. i thought "hey i'm in high school i can pick classes whenever the hell i want to." i was sorrily mistaken. six thirty in the fucking morning that's what time i have to be up. someone shoot me. college and sd aren't that bad i guess. i miss my house and my cats and jesse and mer mer and both jeremys and addy and all of burbank and some parts of sb or ventura or whatever. i'll be back soon though. i met this cute girl from jersey who has a psycho ex-boyfriend who came all the way from jersey to be with her. she thinks he's crazy and i thought it was kind of cute. okay it's still crazy. she is my new friend. and i like the girl s across the hall too. went to some frat parties and they sucked. saw TWO cute indie guys and ONE hardcore boy. so i have three choices and i'm sure they have girlfriends or are gay. so i'm screwed. no. well. i wish i was. just kidding. i haven't been that corrupted ....yet. i kidd i kidd. well i'm a tiny bit sleep deprived so i hope everyone is well. goodnight.

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August 26th, 2003

Current Music: gang of four-entertainment!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Subject: take my daughetrs, please Time: 04:40 am Current Mood: drained

oh dear god. three days until i leave for san diego. too soon. i'm sad and excited and worried and so i'm basically a fucking mess. i know it's not even that far, but still. who knows what kind of stuff is waiting for me there. ugh and i don't want to grow up. well i just want to skip all that shit in the middle and become a senior citizen, marry meryl, and eat cheesecake. all of our friends are going to be like the golden girls except i'm going to be so fat i'll need a wheelchair. oh i can't wait. love one another sweetly because you never know when they'll be leaving. <3<3<3<3

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